Rivers and Roads

Stand by Me

Don’t know why. was feeling really off today. I need someone to talk to, to just explode to but I don’t know if that would make me feel better or just worse because I’m complaining to someone. I don’t want to burden people, but at the same time I know they would tell me I’m not burdening them. Must be the Japanese complex in me—not wanting to bother others and try to just be there for other people and make sure they’re comfortable and don’t worry about anything else, not even myself.

…I hate ranting, but this is the only place I have to rant and I’m sick and tired of just doing the routine of life. Of worrying about pointless things. Of always wanting to be surrounded by others. Of not trying.

I just don’t know. It’s like, I can visualize where I want to be and I can see this life that God has planned for me, but I’m stuck behind this fence or this brick wall that’s preventing me from moving forward and from being confident and sure of myself.

Advice or anything would be lovely right about now…